School, work, and church....

I realize that i have not written in her for a long time. Update time! Well, school is going well. I'm doing pretty ok in my classes. I have a few A's. I know I have a C in my math class though. I am majoring in Family Studies with a minor in Psychology. I am thinking of going towards Social Work. I used to hate social workers because of an experience that happened when i was 5 or 6 that occured but this semester I've got to experience adoption. For school, we had to put in 40 hours of volunteer for something that helped families and so i decided to volunteer at an adoption agency up the road from my house. I just finished my 40 hours last week, but i had an amazing experience and i even got offered a part-time job as an executive assitant(like a secretary, making copies, organizing information packets, and folders, going to Alliance meetings etc.) It wasn't too hard and i learned a lot.
Work has been going well. I'm still working at the daycare. I'll be there 4 years on January 9th. Hopefully, i'll get a raise. If so, then i'll be making as much as i did with the tumbling job i had 2 years ago! So sad! But that is what happens at daycares even in you have a degree, atleast at my daycare. I am working with the school-aged chldren. I was with them this past summer as well. We do groups and I am incharge of the craft group on days i've there in the afternoon. I usually only have to come up with projects for those 2 days! It is actualy fun! I have some children that drive me bonkers and won't listen to anyone. Most of them have authoritarian parents or permissive parents that could careless on what they do! :( but oh well!
Church, now this is where i've changed. I've kinda quit going to church. I was going to the LDS church for 2 years and 9 months. I've quit going though. I haven't gone in a month. I'm just not feeling it anymore and I don't believe it is wrong to drink coffee, tea or alcohol. This part is where it is going to get touchy, but i don't think it is wrong to be homosexual either. I don't want anyones input on this topic because i know how most people feel, and most people feel different about it than i do, which i am fine with, just don't put in your 2 cents. I believe it is natural and that it is something someone is born with, depending on how they are raised will determine how open or closed they will be on the issue until one comes to term with it and accepts it as being natural. I believe what the Bible is referring to was from that in Bible times. We don't follow exactly everything the Bible says. If we did, we wouldn't be wearing gold or jewelry either. We would still be wearing tunics and robes as they did, etc. Some things the Bible says, yes, we do need to follow, and other stuff no, because it is for their generation and not ours. I don't want anyones input on this either, because i know what you are going to say and i don't want to hear it. If you don't like what i have to say then don't read it, and if you want to quit talking, then go ahead and be judgemental, but that it something God speaks against, because he is the judge and not us, so don't go doing his job. I've been going to a church though, well the past 2 sundays, that accepts gays. I like it! They are very loving, warm-hearted people! I felt accepted, even on my first day! I have met several people already, and have been offered to help with the children. I was singing with them today and was asked if i wanted to help with them, and got invited to sit with some of the people instead of alone like i have these past 2 sundays! I like it, and i do not think it is wrong. If you want to say something about this post, keep your opinion neutral. Just say, i see what you are saying, i don't agree, but ok. Doesn't mean you have to accept me for it, but don't be rude and tell off how you think i am wrong. In my mind, i will see it as your opinion. I don't ever listen to people who are like this. That's just me and is what i have learned to be!

Just an update

Well, there is not too much to say about me.

The school year is almost over and I have a paper that was due yesterday that i did not get done. I will finish it tomorrow and then I'll turn it in on Wednesday hopefully. I have a group presentation tomorrow. I have a pretty busy and crazy schedule. Yesterday, i had FHE to which i took of friend's daughter to cause she was feeling ill and so i took care of her daughter last night and yesterday morning i took her to daycare. I can see what mom's mean bythey have no time for anything and how fun it'll be to be a mom. My friend said that she heard her daughter crying 3 or 4 times last night. I stayed the night and I heard her once. I will be staying the night with that friend again tonight. Tomorrow i have school from 8-3pm with a 3 hour break scattered in there. I have work from 3:45 to 6:30 and then I have choir from 7-9pm. I do not think I will do institute choir next year. I think I am done with singing. My friend and I are going to sing a song for sacrament, and then i will have my institute stuff and I am done, plus my voice is starting to suck. I've never been all that great anyways but I am learning to sight read the alto line. It's fun. I think singing is fun though. Thursday, i have school, work and group and then Friday i have school and i'm going to road runner food bank all day and then some on Saturday! Saturday after Road Runner, I am going to dinner and a movie with my Dad. He will be turning 50 tomorrow! Wow! He's getting old! J/k. In 4 years, my mom will be 60! wow! and by then, i'll be 25! yikes hmm, who knows where i will be then in life! we will see.
For Thanksgiving, every year, my mom and I know go to visit my grandpa in Tx. this year, we will be staying with him, and then going to his sister's house for Thanksgiving! I wonder if my uncle still has his cowboy hat. A few years ago he said i'd make a good cowgirl. His spanish is so funny to listen too. He used to be a truck driver for Warner. One year when we were in Tx, my uncle showed us his truck. He showed us when he was in Albuquerque too one year. But in texas, it was parked in the church parking lot across from my Grear Aunt's house on Grape st. and he let me go under the trailer! The trailer is so tall! Sometimes, i don't mind being short. I miss back in the day when everyone was young and we would all go down as a family(my mom, dad, sister and I) and we would play hours of Spite and Malice (aka Skipbo) it was so much fun! Man, too many fun memories as a kid! It's hard for my grandpa to move around now. He is in a wheel chair, but he had to have one of his legs amputated from his knee down because of complications to his diabetes. It caused him to get a lot of gangrene(sp?). Last year it snowed too! Yes, in texas it snowed! Last year was fun too cause i saw JoDee and Amber at Walmart when i went with my mom. They were my old camp counselors at Ponderosa for a few summers! JoDee just recently had a baby. I'm not sure when but she was pregnant when i saw her. I made my grandpa when he was in the nursing home for a while one of my specialty blankets. It was green and either a dark grey or black. I know i've seen him use it a few times. I've learned to overcome the trials of corners and sowing. On one of the blankets i've made, i don't remember who. I think it was marry's baby, i tacked it and i did one end with none of the tabs so it could go near his face. That is my new way of it. Now i gotta figure it out for like beds and all, just the fabric gets expensive. I need to make one for Janessa's baby and I want to make one from my friend's 2 year old daughter and for Janalee's little one on the way!
As far as my mission is concerned. At times i want to go and at times i don't. I've realized I like to meet investigators and to go teaching with the Elders or with the sister(if we ever have any) The main thing stopping me is that I have 3 cousins getting married nxext year or maybe one the next year and my sister is supposed to be moving her. I have one semester left to have my lottery scholarship and then i will either have to start taking one or 2 classes a semester so i don't have to get any loans, or i will get a loan as my grandma has suggested and do the 2 years i have left which i think i will owe about $10,000 or more once i am done with just getting a degree in Family studies but it won't be an MS or anything. I want eventually get a masters in counseling. I would counsel either families or individuals. The thing is i like to help people and some emotional things I can deal with and others I can't. Too, if i go on my mission next year, i will have to wait to go until next November because I have to wait to submit my papers til May because i've been told that i am not emotionally ready to go. But too, somethings I have to take care of from my past before i can go. But i can't save money to go until summer cause i won't have school and so i wouldn't have the money til November of next year, so we will see.
I may need to move home too, just because i feel like i am not accomplishing anything mission wise by living in town anymore. Yes i do not have to fill up as often and i can have to social life and don't have to waste money by going in and out of town trying to find something to do, but my main reason for moving in is to save mission money. Since i was told i have to wait, my desire to serve a mission isn't all that big. I am not very patient when it comes to waiting. I love being in town and yes, i am in Becky's room and she will have it when she comes for Thanksgiving, but i feel like i am using them cause the only way i help them out is i cook for them sometimes and i do the dishes sometimes. I will put them in the dish washer and all. I am learning more on how to cook though.
So i am not being persecuted anymore really by people outside the church for being a member of the church, which is amazing! It is a huge stress reliever. I get stressed way easily and it helps me to stay calm when people aren't saying so often that I am wrong and all.
Well. that is it really on my life right now. Take care!

Friends and I

My friend Becky, of whom I'm living with, decided that since it was raining,her and i were going to go running in the rain and go play in the rain! This i had never done before but i was ready for my first time when i would have someone to do it with. I ran and got flipflops before the rain quit and then ran out the door. We played in the gutter some and she started taking off towards the end of her road, so i flicked off my shoes on the sidewalk and went after her. She decided she wanted to go check out the arroyo and so we went and checked it out at the park! It was flowing really bad! We saw a shopping cart flowing down the arroyo. It was crazy, but awesome! I would've taken picture but my camera was at home! We got home and had her dad take pictures of us. I took some of my own, which i created my own video. It is almost 2 minutes! But it's fine! Well, i'm done now! Oh yeah, this guy as we were walking back to the house said "No fear!" it was funny! Actually, i was very fearful of it til i did it! Plus there was lightning and thunder everywhere.

Wisdom Teeth

I found out a week ago that i needed to get my wisdom teeth out! I got nervous because i couldn't afford it and so i started praying about it. On Sunday, my Bishop gave me the number for an LDS doctor. I called him on Monday and he had no openings until September and so they put me on a quick call list cause i needed to get them out ASAP. They called Tuesday and said somoeone had called and cancelled and they had an opening @9:30am and they called at 8am. I got permission from my boss to go. After my consultation, they said they had an opening for thursday at 10am (meaning today) and so i called my boss, got permission and could go.

Yesterday, my friend Corey and I had gone to Ponderosa Christian Camp and so we did not get home til after midnight. I at around 3ish and then once we got there, i wasn't hungry and so i didn't eat, but by midnight, i was starving! Well, more like 11:30ish. Corey and I stopped at a gas station out of the Jemez Pueblo and he bought me food. He bought me a sandwhich, cheese stick, Trail mix, and a Take 5. I only had time to eat the sandwhich and cheese stick. We headed home and the next morning(today) I went to work. Funny thing is is I couldn't eat for atleast 8 hours, or well after midnight. It was so bad because at 4 something this morning i woke up dying of thirst and got a sip of water (as if i were taking medicine) and went to sleep. When i woke up at 6:45am, I got another sip of water. I was having dreams before the first and 2nd sips about drinking water and getting in trouble about it by the dentist. I went to work like usual and left @ 9. I came home and started writing my testimony in the Book of Mormon for Kaeran. We left later than i wanted to. I had to go pick up my prescription before going to the doctors. Kaeran paid for my prescription. But we made it a little later than i was supposed to. I got checked in and they took his name down and during the surgery they explained things to him for me on how to treat me and all. Luckily, I only had 2 and they were on top. I've heard from Becky's mom and Janalee, Becca and my doctor that the top doesn't hurt too bad. To which they don't.

The procedure went as so. Right before i got called, i'd given the book of Mormon i wanted to give to Kaeran to him and started explaining some of it to him. Then i got called. The nurse who took care of me asked his name and where he was from, which of course is Iraq. In the room she asked, "so i noticed you all reading the Book of Mormon, and i was like yes, and she asked if he was a member and i said no. She said she was, and i told her i was too and this is for my mission. She was excited. She is in the ward in that area. She asked about where my parents live and i said that they weren't members, and so she asked when i'd joined, which was a year and 5 months ago. And she was like, so you are going on a mission and you are already starting, (Lol, I can't keep the gospel to myself). So the doctor put the needle in me to put me to sleep and then they put an oxygen mask on me, and some clamps to monitor my heart rate. I started worrying again and so i prayed. That calmed me down some. I asked how long it would take. She said a few minutes, and Dr. Christiansen said i'd be feeling it in a few seconds. A few seconds later i did and was like "I'm feeling it" and then i was out. I woke up sometime later and they had to say my name 3 or 4 times to get me awake. I could hear but i couldn't quite regain consciousness. I finally came out of it and broke down in tears. It was a scary and weird feeling to be in a state where you could tell things were going on, but couldn't quite respond or move back to normal. Jessica, one of the assistants, moved me to a wheelchair and then to an office where she went to get Kaeran. She got him and he came back and just started trying to comfort me. He was rubbing my shoulders some and playing with my hair and just trying to comfort me. I asked loads of questions and some were repeated. She warned Kaeran that i would do that. I think i did was because i remember asking the questions but not what was said. We went down the elevator and she had him go get the car. He brought it back and they helped me get back in the car. He drove me home of course, which now, i see why that happend. I was way to out of it to focus. I cried most of the way back. Most of it too was cause i wanted my mommy and to be held. He held my hand the entire trip back, which was to mostly comfort me and stuff (and of course, since he likes me). Once we got back, he parked and walked me to the house ( he was my crutch). He knocked on the door, but i started to unlock it right as becky's dad came to answer. Kaeran walked me to the recliner and helped me to sit some. Then we were saying goodbye and we hugged and he gave me a kiss good bye on the cheek in front of Bec's dad. He left and then i changed the gauze in my mouth and dreamt about having gum in my mouth to which iwasn't supposed to and it wouldn't come out and it was freaky, and then i woke up an hour and a half later and got up, did some necessities, ate some, called the doctor, took out the guaze and realized the numbing was mostly gone and i could feel pain on the left side. I took some aleve, ate, took my Anemia medicine and laid back down and slept for about 4o minutes more. Woke up and just sat around some. Becky came home and like 30 minutes later, Andrea came over to visit and brought me Keva Juice. Luckily, i'm not that swollen. I drank the Keva Juice after talking to Andrea for awhile about everything going on took some Hydrocodone because the aleeve wasn't working. My mouth is sore, but not bad, just like a bruise by uncomfortable. That was about 3 hours ago and now i'm about to pass out again. I just hope i don't over sleep.

I forgot to say that this morning Kaeran called to make sure i was awake and he wanted to see if he could bring me breakfast, which i couldn't eat it because i wasn't supposed to eat anything. Also in the car, i asked him how long it took them to do me and he said about 15 minutes. The doctors and nurses said i was easy to do because i had 2 and they were top only. They were only partially bony impacted. Dr. Christiansen, said it was an easy procedure. Luckily, i had no damage caused by my other teeth to them. Becky's mom took care of me most of the afternoon to see if i was alright. She said that about right when i was falling asleep earlier, Ally(their dog) was looking at me with concern and seeing if i was ok. Right this second, she is asleep near my feet in the living room. Well, i'm off to sleep before i get in trouble tomorrow at work. I am going to warn Ms. Ethel (my boss) that i may fall asleep at some points or i may have to go home early. In the morning, i am going to take Aleve and if that doesn't help, then i'll take the Hydrocodone again. I'm gonna have to take food with me to work til atleast tueday so i can keep up with this diet. All i've eaten is Tomato soup and a tropical trip Keva Juice from Andrea. Also, i found out that Dr. Christiansen, knows Janalee and he family. She grew up with her dad. I found out that he also took out my great great aunts teeth about 6 of them, without charging and in her wheelchair cause she was 100 years old when he did it (She is now 101 years old and still alive). I am off to bed now and i need to go eat something before midnight so that i can take more medicine! Ugh!

And that was my experience for today!

Just another blowout!

My car~ 2004 Cantury Buick. Bad thing about it~ The tires! I've had this car for a little over a year, approximately 14 1/2 months. I have had 3 flats and a blow out, almost 2 blow outs to be exact.

This morning, i was just going about my business like normal. I had just gotten off the pone while driving with setting up a doctor's appointment for a physical. I was heading westbound on I-40 between the Louisiana and San Mateo exit and i was in the fast lane(aka the far left lane). I started feeling my car bumping really bad and htought it was the road and so i proceeded to drive. I started wondering if it was my car. It didn't feel like my other flats. I turned off my music and decided to move to the middle lane. It kept going, so it was me! I continued to proceed to the far right lane (3 lane highway). I started going slower and slower and saw a whole bunch of smoike come out behind me. Well, my tire blew out. I don't even know when it happened cause i didn't feel anything til the vibrations. I stopped in the middle of the freeway right next to the construction guys. I was too scared to go anywhere else. I started to cry. I was scared cause i was stuck in the middle of the freeway and i couldn't get out of my car or i'd get hit! I decided to call 9-1-1. I told them that my car had a problem, i thought a flat and i was in the middle of the highway. They said they'd send someone out. While waiting for a cop to show up, one of the construction workers came over and said, do you have a flat, and i said yes. He asked if i had a spare and i said yes. He asked if i had anyone to help me, but i didn't. I have changed a tire before but this one was completely gone. The others just had nails in them. The officer arrived and told me to pull over. He said to go slow. I was trying to go too fast. He used his speaker so i could hear. So i went as slow as possible and moved over when he said. He came over to check on me and said that a highway patrol was on his way to help me change it. The construction worker came over. I didn't realize it was him cause he had put on this bright green jacket one. I got my spare out and my jack. He had one of those hydrolyx machine thingys for drilling i guess but was able to unscrew the bolts. The jack he had was too small or too big for my car and he used mine. He changed my tire for me in like less than 5 minutes! It was awesome. A few minutes after the highway patrol came and we explained the situation and then a realized the guy who changed my tire was the construction guy. I ended up going to discount tires like always. They said my front tire was about to blow too. The metal was showing. The other tire was just wearing out too. I got 3 new tires all with warranties. The reason for the blow out~ not having my tires rotated and being low on air, normal wear and tear. I also have a theory and that is a few sundays ago, i almost ran a stop sign and had to make an abrupt stop and i burned rubber. That could've been the possible cause too. Heavenly Father was watching out for me 4 times this morning 1) Allowing nothing terribly owful to happen after the blow out 2)Allowing me to get over safely and securely 3) He made sure my other tire didn't blow out before i got to the tire place 4) He allowed it to happen today and not tomorrow when i have 3 finals. He also was watching out for me because he sent me a rescuer (The construction man). The patrol man was surprised i got someone over to were i was cause they had many cops out pulling people over today. Luckily, Hannah had previously warned me about them!

There's my crazy day so far!My other flats occured 1) after leaving work one evening (where i learned to change a tire) 2) In Madrid, NM, with my dad this past summer 3) After leaving the institute to go to work. I stopped at a gas station and either i noticed or someone told me. 4) Today on I-40, right near where i in my first car accident 14 months ago.

One year olds and hide & go seek

The other day at work i received a big plastic egg with M&Ms. Today i got the idea of putting my keys inside the egg and hiding them from my one year olds. It was so adorable. One of them picked up on finding it. I would hide it in obvious places. The second round the little girl who found it the first time went to look in the same place, but i was like over here. I had them cover their eyes. It was funny how they did it. They would hide their eyes but sometimes only once, or not at all, then i'd put it down and one of the other little ones who was watching picked up on it, and would pick it up. Of course, i'd have to congratulate them too for finding it. It was absolutely hilarious and adorable to watch. I tried to get them to hide it, to see how much they picked up but that was way over their head. They did pick up after awhile when i would ask them again and they wanted to, they'd hide their eyes, or not even at all and all they'd do is go find it. I did have to tell them what area to look though, otherwise they'd be totally lost! WAY TOO CUTE!!!!